Today I had pizza with my brother and his two friends. THey are so funny! I realized today that Ricky is really cute. I never seen him the way I seen him today [haha] cause I've never hung out with him. He has a fantastic laugh, it's unexpected. Hrm...it was an okay day. I felt horrible that my brother was very obnoxious at my jobsite, but oh ( Read more... )

I'm nervous & excited & scared! i Haven't had a job in 2 1/2 years. i'm not used to working and I hope i don't fck up because I am just so I don't know how to explain it. I am praying that all goes well.

I hope A likes me because I like her. I hope I get to meet J because I like her. I saw her at the college the other day and she was so sexy! My attention instantly went to her. Ever since I saw her I had a small crush on her. I wish J would present me to J, but I am not going to think about it. If I meet her by chance than so be it. I enjoy ( Read more... )

yep need to change my lifestyle because there are things that make my life crappy. First to go for something that will make ME happier. I made a list of things for my life so far ( Read more... )

Yesterday I was stubbornly stupid! I kept telling mom to go home because she was winning money from the slots, but I didn't want her to lose it. I than learned a lesson! It's her money and she can do whatever she wants with it even if it means to burn it. I just wanted to help...but I can't force her to do something she doesn't want to. She ( Read more... )

Met a new person today. She was very friendly, funny and warm-hearted! We ate sbarro pizza and she told me about her family. I feel so uncomfortable in this area because it's boring to be home. I get very irritible here so easily; I need to go to the other town cuz I love the area ( Read more... )

Today I found out that I seek change regardless how much it hurts. Last night was crazy for me I almost fell apart again. I can't believe how much it hurts to go unnoticed by the people you love. I hate existing yet not existing. I try to let people take me on a journey so that I can learn from them. I learned to find common ground with others ( Read more... )