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[ladypixel]

... less than eight minutes, and the numb set in again.

I really am a heartless bitch.

Comments

[fritters]

No, you can't help the numb, it comes and goes of its own volition and doesn't make you a heartless bitch. It is an entity unto itself that you shouldn't judge yourself by.

[ladypixel]

I hate the numb.

I hate the tears more.

[fritters]

I'd take the numb any day, but that's just me.

It will hit you when it hits you, you can't rush healing.

[ladypixel]

I'll be honest. It's not the numb I hate. It's the knowledge that the numb will abruptly vanish at some point, and I will be a shrieking, crying wreck at what will typically be the worst possible moment. I can't schedule it, I don't know when it will come. It hasn't, yet. But it will. And I hate it.

[postrophe]

Go Here Now. Hugs.

[ladypixel]

I've read it. I own it.

[dc_morgenstern]

When there's something that hurts so deeply, and we feel it so acutely, the only way to handle it is in pieces at a time. That's why numbness comes, so we can make it through, a step at a time.

[ladypixel]

I'm tired of baby steps. But I guess I need them.