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[ladypixel]

I'm beyond numb today

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[sarianna]

When you go, you don't actually have to do anything except sit there. When my Papa died last year, I wrote and read the eulogy, but the rest of the time, I was just sitting there not thinking and not letting his death sink into my reality just yet. I'm sorry that you have to sit through the bullshit of tearful barely-acquaintances, that sucks monkey balls and yeah, I know they'll try to interact with you, but you are allowed to stare off into space, to say, "Sorry, what?" with a blank face to them after they've been rambling long enough that you're pissed about it, and you can always sit down and close your eyes, so that the only question they'll ask is if you're okay.
...perhaps I've overthought this. Good luck?

[ladypixel]

This would work if it were my father. But I did -that- death a few years ago.

Unfortunately, I'm going not because I want to, this time. I'm going because 1) it was my uncle, and I wouldn't dishonor his memory by ditching his funeral, and 2) my cousin needs the family support, since he found his dad lying dead on his couch.

I don't mind the tearful barely-acquaintances. Everyone should have the right to mourn, and my uncle had a lot of friends. But the problem is that I don't want to sit in the midst of it.

Sometimes, you want people around you. I know I did when Dad died. But by this point, there's nothing people can do that I can't do for myself. I mean, I've seen an AWFUL lot of death since 2005.

I'm probably going to just be there. Whether I interact with anyone or not depends on how I'm doing in the morning. But I'll probably just coexist in a similar space with others.

[postrophe]

You cared that much. Yeah, you have the right to the same shock as your cousin. Don't guilt over it. Hugs.

[oxfoxieroxiexo]

You know where to find me if you ever just want to talk, honey. I will think of you today. *lots of hugs and kisses*

[ladywraith]

Thinking of you. You have my deepest sympathies

[khall]

*hugs tight* I love you. There's not much more I can say. So hopefully that simplicity will suffice.

K.

[dc_morgenstern]

I know I don't say much very often, but I do think about you more often than I let on, and I've always cared. I've also always had faith in your ability to get through things, and know there are more people caring about you than just me

[ladypixel]

I got some floss at Michael's not too terribly long back. I just am not fond of Michael's as a chain, given how... mmm, how do I put it... Their personnel at some of the stores are not exactly familiar with the merchandise out here, I guess that's the best way to put it. As someone who has a craft store, I know it's essential to know your stock, at least one facet of it, and many of the people I run across at Michael's stores out here are less than familiar, and don't seem to care. Then again, this is true of most stores out here. ;)

But at least it's an option, even though I'm twerked that I can't get the floss at the 33-cent price I was getting it at before. I have a feeling a lot of people will be twerked.

I'll post more later on the other part of the comment. But... not yet.

[dc_morgenstern]

I had the same experience of people not knowing their stock there before, and many other places as well (notably WalMart for one where I continue to run into that problem). I understand, and agree that they should, though there seems to be a decline in knowledgeable employees everywhere...