Just if you want to know... I'm changing my lj... I just couldn't go with my old nick. So I have already friended some of you to my new lj, and others who want to be on my friendslist just friend me and I friend you back. So my new lj is named to oji_chou and I will soon move all my ljstuff to there.
I'm just feeling so bad. I really love this person... I think there is no way I can ever have him... It hurt's so much you know. Being so in love with someone and no hope. It's torture. I don't know what to do with this, with myself, my mind... I don't know if I can take this pain anymore.