As love knocks at the door, I relaize it is all because of God that he loves me...he being Richie....

Dishes stacked high..flowers need to be watered..dentists apointments...frustrating thoughts...laundry...empty e-mail...missing friends...unknown future.....Praising GOD ( Read more... )

Richie.... I feared He would nto be able to love me in the body I have and when I told him so. He said stop thinking so badly of, stop assuming bad things about me, he said give me a chance and I will surpise you. Never before have I even heard anyone respond so beautifully. it made me realize that it has been me whom has not allowed the world ( Read more... )

When I recieve a message in my yahoo e-mail stating someone wished for me to write, it made me happy, so thank you Jen. The reason for me not writting in this journal or any of the other I have online is well I was afraid of what words would come from mind. Well, for you that do nto know, I was in a mental hospital for 10 days from 3/27 to 4/1 for ( Read more... )

As it seems, things continue to get ore complicated as the hours go by. My roomate for next year is not returnig here in the Fall, she is going to L.A. I am going ot my aunt's for the summer, but my parents already know I am going to be there. My laptop is completely SCREWED! And I really miss him. It seems liek a year since I have seen him, ( Read more... )

Many of you may know who HIM is considering I talk abotu him constantly and well, the reason I do so is because I love him so much and he cares for me unlike anyone else has. Yesterday, He said to me..."Ashley, I do nto care abouht those other individuals, My main concern is that you are okay." My heart basically----MELTED! How often is it that ( Read more... )

It is hard when people continue to let me down. I mean why the fuck would she say I could go to NJ with her, without askign her parents? And why would she lie to me and say that I would be able to go and everything was going to work out? Why do people fucking lie? At least I had Dan, Chandra, and Bethany last night...they love me so much and I ( Read more... )

Well, It's been a very long time since I have written anything, which is partially due to the lack of knowing what has really been going on in my life. At this very moment I am happy. Last night I met an amazing person who has given me inspiration to write. Life is filled with unexpected miracles that become inspirations to keep living. I am ( Read more... )

As I was in the shower a very minutes ago, around 9:30PM on December 31, 2005, I was thinking about how this year has been the best and the worst. And many may ask themselves how can a year be the best and the worst? My simple answer is LIFE. My first instinct was to sit here and go through all my old blog entries in my 3 online journals and my own ( Read more... )

On November 5 I was saved. Not in a church, where I would go to the alter, but in my bed at UNCG. Alone and confused about som many things in life, I knew that I needed God in my life. I had been crying myself to sleep because I just felt so lost and unable to grasp any hope. I had been talking to Amanda and Casey about God and I was reading ( Read more... )