yikes it's been forever. i'm surprised i was able to figure out my old password. sigh ( Read more... )

and i dont like it. i dont think it's completely jealousy, it's just that i dont like NOT being the funny cute one anymore. i mean, i like to think that i am, but now i'm not the only one. and it's hard watching all this take place. it's kind of like employee of the month, only it feels like im the only one competing. and yet she's winning. it's ( Read more... )

no tampa

i deleted my xanga journal. it was pointless on so many levels. MAINLY the fact that i wasted a lot of time reading other's stuff, which, i'm sorry, is also pointless. i had a good convo with a friend today about the stupidity of wanting people to change so badly....that you write in your journal. ha. i mean seriously. its here to post feelings, ( Read more... )

inhale......exhale......inhale.....exhale ( Read more... )

fuck this shit sometimes i just want to get the hell out of this place ( Read more... )

i can feel the stress mounting ( Read more... )

so i guess it took me...what 8 or 9 weeks into the semester to realize that i've been working my ass off, and you know what, i deserve some time to slack. so that's what yesterday and today have been. yesterday i didnt go to my first three classes. oh well. today i totally meant to get up and go to my internship, or at least email the lady, and i ( Read more... )

im tired of all the selfishness going on lately. seriously. a lot of it could be avoided too if people would just LISTEN, or i dont know, maybe just think about what's best for the person you 'care' about. blah.

today is not a good day so far. and it's 8 am. :(

this weekend is gonna suck

i'm sorry to my friends if i've apparently gone away from the world for a while; the j-school and my internship and working at schnucks have taken up my life. if it makes you feel any better, i dont get to drink on the weekdays anymore :( sad, i know. i miss you all, and will return to you soon...i hope