i really havent wanted to updated recently because i hate making these entries depressing. i normally use live journal to vent and just get everything out of me so i dont blow up at my friends but i normally do that anyways so w/e ( Read more... )

I AM FINALLY DONE @ 2:10 AM!!! NO MORE COLLEGE APPLICATIONS EVER!!!!!!!  : - )

old habits die hard and the worse ones for you take the longest

January ( Read more... )

every now and again i reassess my life. and i dont know weather this is a good thing or a bad thing. i go through everything and just sort out what i like and what i dont like. sadly enough i reassess my friendships and my relationships with people. which ones are healthy and which ones aren't. during this time though i fall into a place that i ( Read more... )

I'm a roller coaster of emotions these days... grr i hate stress ( Read more... )

its finally thanksgiving break and i need this more than i even want to believe. i've been a wreck these past few weeks or so. i dont really know why either. I'm really not happy with everything thats going on in my life right now and i know that alot of the reasons why im not happy are my own fault and no one else's.
- I waited to long on college ( Read more... )

i dont think i could be anymore confused than i am at this moment

i just keep fucking up .... and i really just dont care any more

It's been so long since I've felt this way and i hate it. i dont know who i am anymore, ive lost sight of myself,i havent hit a point this low in months and im not sure what's bring it about but i dont like me anymore, i feel like im not being myself and most of what im doing is a lie... and i'm tired of it. I dont know how to explain it but i feel ( Read more... )