i should be working on my research paper, but i really just need to sort out my thoughts and destress in a more personal and productive way. i want to get back into writing in this journal more. i feel like it would really help me and not feel so... lost ( Read more... )

my summer was a waste.

and i spent most of it with the person who probably cares about me the least. why am i so blind?

i hate college. i don't think i belong here. i'm not good at anything. i'm doing so poorly in my classes. i always get C's on my midterms... B's or C's on my paper. i don't think i've gotten an A here except on the little things that are like 5 pts. i hate this. i hate how i get a paper back that i worked hard on slandered. i hate how i study my ( Read more... )

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"i just hope by this time next year, i'd be satisfied with what college i'll be attending the following fall." - JUNE2006i haven't written in this since march. i can't believe i didn't even make a post about what colleges i got into. i got into UCSD, UCI, UCSB, and CAL. i didn't get into ucla or usc.... but it's okay, because i'll be attending ( Read more... )

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.... or not. for me anyway. it was nice. i actually did something. he got me sunflowers & toblerone. then we went out to eat. it was a pretty happy day.


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to make up for the last entry here are some wonderful pictures of a not so wonderful christmas


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so i took my drivers license test and i failed. i missed 17. i kind of expected it. i never really get anything i want. coed TWICE i didn't get in. short flags.. no. key club vp... no. i even made drumline as an alternate. that's not even completely getting in. i bet i won't even get into the university i want. i guess it's like bad karma cuz ( Read more... )