it really hurts when the praise you want, doesnt come from the person you would like it too....remember when you were little and wanted to play with the big kids, they were playing video games..so to shut you up, they give you a controller that wasn't plugged in...well it sucks when the person you care about hands you the unplugged control. It ( Read more... )

I feel like shit right now..I just hurt one of my roomates feelings...I didnt mean too.

well in my dream he did, and they got married, and had a bunch of gay sex....IT WAS AWFUL..I would of rather been left for a prettier, cooler girl..then another man...makes the whole relationship be a big fat lie..the dream hurt so much, I couldnt attend the wedding..the dream felt soooooo real too,,,will?

I never cried so much in a movie theater..I mean everyone should see this movie, and see the Suffering of christ.. It was just told so powerfully, everything he was about was love..and yet they still spit,whipped, and toutured him..even in his last breathe,,he says "forgive them" Im not a religous person, im a spirtual one, and that movie moved me ( Read more... )

nothing like a movie to help make you appreciate life....so much spins in my head I dont know where to begin...my anxiety disorder is commingback..I honestly dont know what triggers it..but if im by myself ALONE with my Lovely brain..it comes I cant sleep or breathe good..lucky for me Hannah was up in the other room, so I get up, and just shoot the ( Read more... )

12 Reasons Homosexual Couples Should Not Be Allowed to Marry ( Read more... )

I just read a message board on cutters..and I remembered things I use to do, and probably will still be doing. Like if was really upset and losing grip...I would give my hand to my cat and let her rip the shit out of it..because she liked to attack my hands..and I would close my eyes and let the pain go through me...because with the pain, the anger ( Read more... )

well Nanny you are missed its been 16 years now since you died on V-day/ I remember you clear as day. I remember your funeral..I remember you when you had life in your body..I wonder how big of a bound we would of had when i was a teenager, would you of let me get away with murder. or would you be a pain in the ass?..hmm I guess I will never know ( Read more... )

I fucking cried twice today! TWICE..broke down at math..and then H&M..Im so happy Cyndi let me go to the bathroom..and collect myself..and slam the door..I swear when you feel shitty..shitty people just flock to you...I was working at H&M today//and the people were such assholes...so many times I wanted to say "fuck you cunt"..so many times i ( Read more... )

I dont know if i can do this...its mid-term..mad stuff to do..and not all is done.....and I had to attend a work meeting 6-9..which was actually funny..all the visuals and managers dressed in 50 clothes..Larry looked so good with hair..oh my goodness he is a looker.and his whole Fonzy persona was nice...but anyways back to school work...can you say ( Read more... )