I really dont feel like I have any good friends anymore ( Read more... )

I have made a lot of mistakes in life, but lately I feel like I have fucked up beyond belief. The problem is I am just not sure, and I am not willing to risk all the security I have right now to find out. Not that it would even matter because too much has happen, too many days have past, and too many people are just fed up ( Read more... )

Today has been long, literally very long, about 6 hours longer than a normal day for me. I just got back from Israel and the time changes have been a bitch. I wonder why it had to be today of all they days that ended up being this way ( Read more... )

So life recently hasn't been exactly perfect. I don’t know what I want, which of course is nothing new, but I feel like I am harming others with my indecision. I stayed home from work today, sick, but I think it’s in my head. I just am tired of it all. Tired of work, tired of getting up, tired of obligations. I want to be free. I hate how ( Read more... )

So Alex completely saved me this weekend and I am forever in his debt for it. He actually went with me to my jew dance. I was so dreading not going with a 'date'. I am not really sure why he decided to go, i am just happy he did. The dance itself wasn't that good but we survived, I think he wanted to leave from the second we walked in but he ( Read more... )

Issues ( Read more... )

I am so sick... my back hurts, my throat hurts, and I am so tierd. All I have done all day was lie in bed. I hate this, I want to be better already.

JMU was very interesting. I drank way too much.

So the person I thought was going to go to sweetheart with me can't now. Kinda need a date, but at this point I believe everyone has one.

It was Kay's 18th birthday yesterday, no one did anything for it, but it wasnt forgotten.

JP is mad at me now...
I dont like it...
but I can't do anything because...
it is not my fault.

Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens
A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins
I will never ask if you don't ever tell me

So Valentines day was not the disappoint I expected it to be. Went out the night before it with JP to Otani's. He drove, actually came to the door, brought me a flower, and CUT HIS HAIR! Major surprise, and I ( Read more... )