i have a lot to say, but don't know where to start. there's a million things i'm thinking, but i don't know how to say them. today was easily one of the worst days i've ever had. i need someone to talk to, but the person i need more than anything isn't here anymore ( Read more... )

sometimes it takes a life changing event to realize how much someone has helped you, encouraged you, listened to you, cared about you, wanted you to be happy and successful. and sometimes, you don't get the proper chance to thank them for all they've done for you.

it's too late now.

( dear mr. muzzy, )

i feel really empty, and lonely, and sad right now. i feel unwanted. i feel dull. i'm bored of everything and everyone. i love my job, but i hate the drive. i love my house, but hate most of the people who live there. i can't decide what makes me the happiest. i miss not having to care about stuff so much. i miss when i used to care too much about ( Read more... )

i still like him.

i'm missing something.

...but i don't know what it is

i wish our talk had continued for longer than just the mcdonald's line...

so i decided that i'm pretty much mad/upset/frustrated/let down at/with/by everyone. i'm real sick of hearing about how i'm "overly sensitive," or "ridiculous" or a "baby". well, at least i have feelings, emotions, attachments. at least i can express the fact that people hurt me and i'm upset about it. i'm sick of explaining myself, and apologizing ( Read more... )

i just washed my hair for the first time since march.

i'm moving in two days. i don't want to share my soap with bree.

i got a $75 speeding ticket last night for going 85 in a 65 zone on 95.

i only slept three hours last night, and drove for five straight.

i like ian a lot.

i hate awkward situations. i hate being put in the middle of them, and i hate when people intentionally try to put me in them.

i do, however, love one on one conversations and totally not feeling weird around my friends.

it's 1:33 and i'm waiting for crystal to get home from work. this is fucking boring.

yesterday was my birthday.

tomorrow i sign the lease for our new house.

SWEET.