Mediocrity is a sin.

intelligence is ability to adapt.

NNN is even more important than I thought it would be.

I never thought of seriously anticipating it, but looking back at ideas, my unhealthy copying mechanisms - I could take it as a challenge.

"Fake it till you make it"

But how would anyone says such words, if they fail again and again and again? This school year has given me worst nightmares of ( Read more... )

What if all those smart and gifted people have inner demons, and only numbers of them get successful?

And what we can consider, if we can only look at the pretty side of someone? Why would someone try so hard to look smart?

... Maybe I should have accepted my capabilities and moved on my life long time ago. Who cares if someone is more gifted than ( Read more... )

IQ is not even close to description of geniuses.

Do you even have an idea how much geniuses work to get towards their plans?

I genually don`t understand those internet people, who write specific IQ requirements to be considered as "geniuses". What the hell you are talking about? Are you retarded? Genius spent his whole life to reach certain ( Read more... )

I`m in agony again with these marks. I thought everything was right, and at the end I got bad marks. It doesn`t even make sense.

I know maths is logical structures, but getting a 2 is just ridiculous for me. How is that even possible? Am I dumb? No, I`m not hardworking enough.

Beside, this game of "don`t work to appeal smart" is destructive.

I`m no ( Read more... )

I need less distraction. I hate distraction. When I study something, I want to fully immerse myself in. It is annoying.

I hate sleeping. I just hate the idea of sleeping. You just sleep there, unprotected. I experience some kind of fear of getting beaten while I`m asleep. I feel like the world would break me.

But I guess it is a necessary.

Well, it is tough. Learning math equivalent to learn how to draw; there are certain rules need to be learned to have fun. Most of math and physics just reading how stuffs work, and stick with it.
I hate this, but I hate bad results even more. Most of academic math and physics filled with understanding the outside structure, not letting me create.

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I need a plan. I have many ideas, but one of them should be completed.

I want 100 on EGE physics and mathematics, 80 on Russian.

Also finish the Project.

It is not impossible if I put hard work in it. After all, with hard work, I always get what I want.

There are a lot of themes need to be covered, as well as rereading materials to prepare. I want ( Read more... )

Hardworker in school and home, talented at meetings.