Yo, yo, yo. It has finally occured to me that University of Idaho is really my ideal school. When I picture myself four years from now it's there with Eric. And some may criticize me for following some boy, but really it's no ones fucking busssiness but my own. Ten years from now I would rather look and back and see that I followed my heart and ( Read more... )

Wow I have like no time lately! Soccer is over and all I want to do is sleep. I am scared I have MONO or something. Ugg. College is soooo stressfull I am falling way behind. Err I really need to get on the ball, it is all so hard. I hate this so much.

GOD what is going on with me. Every other day I am miserable about Eric and I. This is fucking rediculous. I don't trust him, I realized that last night! Sometimes I feel like he does not care at all. I just want a boy to love me like he used too...The horrible thing is last night whne I was upset after talking to Eric I immeadiently thought of ( Read more... )

It's so weird that by someone saying one thing that they can put in a horrible mood, and make you cry yourself to sleep. Especially when he doesn't even realize that he made an asshole comment. I hate that! God, why do I put myself through this? I thought I could trust him, but really can I? I mean we were together for only like a month and we ( Read more... )

College stuff is totally stressing me out. First of all my GPA was like .5 points lower than I thought it should be and same with my class rank. Err! So basically I am going to appear like a failure to all the colleges I apply to and get in nowhere! And like even appling, I'm facking retarded and I can't figure it out. How do you fucking apply ( Read more... )

Omg! I'm so fricken depressed today. The school day was alright, but after that it sucked. And I am thinking about switching out of AP Clac. Which at this moment seems to be the least of my worries. I got home which was just hectic and annoying and was bored and hungry. And I have been craving ice cream all week! So I talked to Eric and he ( Read more... )

I am wicked tired right now. I just want to curl up in a ball and sleep forever! Soccer got cancelled today I was really happy because my toe really hurt and I didn't want to go to the trainer because I feel weird having him wrap my toe. School was better today, I got to know a few people better in my classes that I knew no one in. I get to ( Read more... )

Ehh, today was a really bad day starting off. I was so close to losing it with Eric, because I felt like he forgot I existed. Scary! But then during soccer practice which was horrible Eric called me like 3 times so I felt loved. And then I talked to him in Target, and that made my day slightly better. Then I got home and Donny had gotten a ( Read more... )

I am not having a good day!

Okay, I get thrilled over the littlest things. Like for awhile I wasn't washing my hair because I wanted it to get healthy so it wasn't so dry. But yea, so tonight at the football gaem Jane was standing behind me and like stroking my hair. And I was just grossed out even though I wasn't the one doing it. So I got home and washed my hair. Then ( Read more... )