things with nick are good. i am not pressuring myself to label it yet as forever or not. way too soon. and the more pressure i put on myself the quicker things will turn to shit. i am just taking my time and enjoying the experience. he really gets through alot of the layers no one else can. he helps me let go of things that weigh me down. since i ( Read more... )

So today my dad found a $100 gift card to Barnes & Noble so we went there and spent it all plus another $100 because you can never have enough books, cd's and dvds. I finally finished my Sex and the City 4th season. All in 2 days! Then went to Sam's Club and found out they have ALL 8 SEASONS of Friends on dvd for half the price of borders!!! Guess ( Read more... )

i feel for him but at the same time grrrrrrrrr. i dont wanna argue on my birthday. i wanna be peaceful and celebratory. is that a word? anyway looked over some of th poetry i wrote him all those years ago. my what i fool i was. i am gonna have to write some shit im not embarrassed to read to people. well im at nicky's gonna take a shower. im 26 now ( Read more... )

so today is gonna be the illustrious and long awaited party. yahoo! lots of people coming. lots of people who are awesome and full of love and can play music so we can jam. yay for impromtu jam sessions. tonight was fun. went to ichiban steakhouse with like 8 people for brian's birthday. i snuck out and let them know it was his birthday so they ( Read more... )

last night we had a birthday celebration for me and a few friends, i drank WAY too much and mixed stuff i shouldnt have. i spent like 3 hours at nick's literally hugging the toilet and wailing and sobbing and puking. it took 6 people alternating to take care of me. i love my friends. then had to wake up early and drive to staten island. met nicks ( Read more... )

are AWESOME. tonight for Loly's birthday we went to croc rock which i hate doing, but we saw the Wailers. they were beautiful. moer than i hoped for. saw SCOTT ROSSI my big beautiful friend. i was dancin' my heart out. Loly looked beautiful as always and Colin sporting his dreds in a pony tail on the very top of his head. they still came almost ( Read more... )

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haven't written on here in forever man. i need to write something and no one really needs this anymore so what harm could it do ( Read more... )

so last night i had an epiphany. i had all this shit all planned out in my head about my future and it worked... it could not fail. it was genius as many things are if i smoke on it. i went to sleep so freakin' happy... i was like "i should write this in my livejournal so as not to forget it." but i was tired so i waited till morning ( Read more... )

sometimes i sit in my woods with my eyes closed. i look up to the sky and open my eyes and the clouds seem to whisper "i love you". i grab my green and i take it in and hold it as long as i can... let it out with all my stresses and worries. i was floating one day when i heard a knock on my door. it was me, at 5 years old. i had rainbows painted on ( Read more... )