I signed the lease! I am the proud renter of a bomb ass apt.

I found a ballin new roommate and a ballin new apt.
things are looking up.
life will be good.

I miss working out
I miss having a life
I miss my future
I miss my past
I miss inspiration
I miss Jesus
I miss hating him
I miss everything

I am lost.
So very lost.

doctor's apt tomorrow.
maybe he can fix my brain.
maybe he can help my heart hurt less.

i feel like crap.
i feel like i am alone.
i am alone.

i wish i could communicate.
i wish you could too.
i hate this feeling.
i hate calling you sometimes.
i love you all the time.

ilovehimsomuch.
iwanttobehappier.
i will be.
maybe all i need is sleep.

i got a new bra! one that fits me.
new bra. new start!
yay

i feel totally indifferent ( Read more... )

my bf taught me about history on the phone ( Read more... )

Today you felt so far away.
I just want someone to cuddle me.
I ruined my back, so i cant work out.
I just want to be with my boyfriend now.
I feel like hell, emotionally and physically.
I think that I'm going to go cry myself to sleep.