Well the whole living close to the gym thing went downhill a little while after my last post. Fanie went bananas over $50 and put all my shit on her lawn, so I moved into Tinas house while shes in BC and Andre was gone for the past two weeks, hes home for four days and he's leaving again this week ( Read more... )

Very calm and collected right now. I feel... like theres nothing I can do right now. Stop. Halt. Discontinue. I am in the middle, the limbo, of life. I am right in the smack dab of everything. A little more frustrating than I would like, because this time last year I was in the same damn place ( Read more... )

Im just dramatic. I read my last entry to see what to say SINCE then and it is really stoopid ( Read more... )

I think people are addicted to fucking up my life. Seriously. Lets review:

June 2007- Selinas high school grad, 18th birthday... fucked up how? Lisas wedding on the same weekend.

June 2009- Selinas college graduation... fucked up how? Tinas wedding, can only stay for one, and guess what was more important

NOW... 2010. Could something POSSIBLY fuck up ( Read more... )

well... another one bites the dust ( Read more... )

*SIGGHHH* I cant sleep. It 11:12 pm and mat is in bed and Im upstairs on the computer... my brain is so BUSY! Maybe if I write it all out I can finally go to bed... so this is what is UPP ( Read more... )

Well then. Doesnt that time of the month make me the most emotional bitch I know. Yupp. Sure does. The week before I rag I go crazy- like- banana sangwhich kinda crazo. Everything always feels like the end of the world. DAMN YOU BODY! STOP BEING SO HORMONAL! What am I going to do when I get prego. No one is going to want to be around me. Not even ( Read more... )

Josh passed away.
On February 1st 09, at 5:34 pm Joshua James Chalcraft; the love of my lif, my friend, my mentor, the best soul on earth... passed away.
I remember after I fell in love with Josh my dad had to take me aside to explain to me that his disease will affect his heart because it is a muscle, and I remember... thinking to myself... how can ( Read more... )

Wow. That was a long time without an entry. I need a vent.
You know how the world looks warped and distant through the bottom of a drinking glass? Thats what my whole life looks like to me right now. And no matter how close I get to the bottom of the glass shit doesn't seem to get clearer.
Grasping at nothing is a lot more depressing than it sounds ( Read more... )

Well I think two months is long enough to go without an update HA ( Read more... )