And ain't that the truth. My god how long has it been? Ive been here, I;ve been there and I def don't care to change any info that will leak the true identity of my being. So let's get on with this drunken mess and talk. Ill def apologize for being so ghost. There surely have been a lot of fillers since the last time, but I feel like its just a ( Read more... )

My stomach turns, twists and knots.
I don't know what to do.
Where am I, who am I, where should I go-
I have no fucking clue.
I see the handle, it's within reach,
I grab but my hand clasps nothing.
It's dark, your cold and deny me
I sit alone and weep.
Then I stand up, shake it off,
Open the door and let the sunshine in. 

You ever get that feeling that you are good enough even though the person judging is not even worth your time..... They aren't worthy of judging you, but then you look at the references and you think SHIT I was soooo wrong and Im no where near good enough for this..... well I do. I know that feeling oh too well, and it is very annoying.  What sucks ( Read more... )

Oh and hasn't that always been my problem. So im sitting here listening to Blues Travelers.... and im telling you what i think those guys might understand me better than most people i know ( Read more... )

SOme people are really fucking weird. I mean i def. qualify in that category- but for real some people are just WEIRD

Life is.... how to finish that sentence. Well i really don't know. I'm in a rut for the time being. I don't know what I'm doing, what I want, what I should do. I'm freaking out a little, but not too much. I mean i still am sane, i think. But I'm def. in a mood I'm not use to. I feel like im doing things all wrong, and I don't know how to fix it, or ( Read more... )

SO- this weekend has been pretty shitty, probably one of the worst in a long time. But to top it all off I received a ticketed (thank god that was it) for possesion of MJ. Long story short some dumbass bitch of a lady with nothing better to than to call the cops on some harmless kids getting high in their car decided to ruin my life. AND so now ( Read more... )

So doesn't it suck when you break up with someone and then keep finding out about people they cheated on your with while you were together. Ha- that seemed to be the problem of the day. I was laready feeling slow and down bc i'm sick and took too much medicine, but that kinda topped off the shitty day feeling. It's not that i care about that person ( Read more... )

Ok I lied.... i really went and celebrated the first night of Hannukah at the Marson's
And tomrrow morning i'll be at their house at 6 am to continue the celebration.... and this is only because i am babysitting- ha
or if you must: getting paid to sleep on their couch-

So i was sitting here bored on christmas bc one- my friends have too much family and two- i have to work at like 6 am so i figured going out was a bad bad idea. Anywho- my christmas was interesting... i didn't get anything really... well some ppl from school gave us gift cards for wal-mart which will come in handy when i go back to school and need ( Read more... )