I'm so melodramatic. You'd think I would've grown out of it... maybe it was all that live action sailor moon I watched the past couple years -- keeping well alive... THE DREAMS PURE OF ALL GIRLS!

..or some engrish nonsense like that.

28 hours ago I met someone who could very well change my life forever. And I hope he does.

So growing up I've met a lot of people due to the internet... and really, you don't get to know who people really are VIA IM and such. It never captures the true nature of people accurately...

But playing World of Warcraft I've spents hours talking to guildmates on voice chat... that's like... hours upon hours of phone time... only through the ( Read more... )

So I really need to start doing somethign productive... like painting, or fixing cars, or instigating fights between hobos and taking bets on the winner...

Ive been infused with this crazy lethargy lately, and its making it hard to do anything. I think it's because i drop all my selfworth points into boys when I like them, and if I dont get any back ( Read more... )

Pretty Girls Make Graves seems to be my salvation too often... I found some songs i didnt know i had on my laptop... and the song "This is Our Emergency" seems to have resolidified my zest for life based on people... or at least brightened a wee portion of my nihilist shadow... for now.

( This is our emergency... )

Ive been randomly driving around for like 4 hours now.... Its amazing how many places you can just stop and find wireless. I wish I would just get tired and chill out a bit... T_T

I think I need anxiety medication... I havent been able to sleep the past week without drinking or taking NyQuil. And I'm becoming a fucking nihilist... if I wasn't already. I used to live for people... I don't know what I live for now... LJ-CUT rambling below...

( Manifest Destiny )

If one more med student asks me if my book store carries "Gray's Anatomy for Students" Im going to fucking freak out. Ive decided that the next person who asks me for it at work -- is going to have me tryign to suggestive sell them the miniture operation board game we have in the text department. "It's just like the clemente's dissecter, only more ( Read more... )

And I'd like to just say that myspace ads get sadder every day... today i got this one...


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The entire summer for me has consisted of:

trying to make plans -->

looking forward to them -->

plans falling through and me remaking plans.

It's hard to find reasons to wake up every day when you know that every reason you can find is just waiting to disappear. I know its not anyone's fault; but it's really unmotivating.

I went to install flash ( Read more... )