Nothing but a failure.

[lastscapegoat]

Ever send a letter you really wish you could destroy before someone receives it? Ever open up to someone you really, probably shouldn't have? I loaded a world of hurt into a three page letter yesterday, and drove as fast as I could to the post office to send it off. Before I could change my mind. I've changed my mind. Now it's too late

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[mental_dust]

*hugs* You're not a failure. You're an awesome person. You can only do so much, just like everyone else. Your mom loves you, she always will, because you are her son and that's just the way that it is. I know it's hard with how things happened, but you have every right to push people out of the way when you start to feel like this. It's ok. I'm glad that you're doing healthy things and trying to change how you feel about yourself. Once you have a positive self image you'll start feeling a lot better. Don't give up man. Just don't do it. Things will work themselves out in the end. I promise you this. E-mail me if you want to talk ok?

[lastscapegoat]

I definitely will. I'm sure things will work themself out, they always do...but I'm glad I have people like you around to remind me so I don't forget. Thanks a ton for the message. :)

[mental_dust]

Just know that you'll always have me here to talk to. I know that we haven't been that close lately, and we never really spent that much time together in real life. But I do consider you to be one of my close friends and I will always have your back. It makes me sad how we just drifted apart all of the sudden. And it makes me sadder that you're having a rough time right now. I want to help. I promise to be a better friend from here on out. You rock my socks. Hey, if you want my phone number just let me know and I'll send it to you in an e-mail ok? Later gator.

[lockedinside]

i wish i had inspirational words of wisdom,
but i don't.
sometimes i wish that i could just...
show you the tears in my eyes so you'd know i still think about you.
it might be foolish and it might be selfish,
but i missed you on my birthday this year.
you kept me together for so much longer than i ever gave you credit for.

and now here we are.
another year older,
and i don't even know your mailing address.
all i have are open-ended internet lies.

sometimes i really miss you.
and i wonder if i'm ever actually going to get to meet you.
to tell you face to face that i wish everything turns out wonderful for you.

anyway, now that more meaningless gander has gotten scribbled down,
i just came for one simple reason.

and despite how much you might think you've lost whatever good you have.
i'm still here.

and i still want you to have a
happy birthday.

love always.
♥ sara

[lastscapegoat]

I don't need words of inspiration or wisdom. They don't much work, I'm sure you know how it is.

I still think about you too. I can't help but miss how close we were. I'm sorry I wasn't around to wish you a happy fourth and a happy birthday. I hope they were both good.

E-mail me or something. I know a while back I told you I felt like we were getting closer, it's still there. Just have to find out a way to keep it alive.

Thanks for the comment.

[slutsky]

i'm sorry that you're sad. )= it really blows a donkey in the anus with a straw full of acid when you're sad. and while i really can't give you any thoughtful words (outside of being sorry that you're sad and the donkey thing, which is sort of questionable on the thoughtful scale) to soothe your pain, you can always count on a laugh. that's what i'm here for, after all.

and while i disagree with my own birthday, i don't with others. and i think that something special should be made out of them and even if it's going to be late as a fucking date with kate (whatever that means), your birthday will be made special! MARK MY FUCKING WORDS, S____ C______!

my fucked up manner aside, please feel better. it'd be good for you, i swear on the lord jesus christ.

[lastscapegoat]

A straw full of acid? You would know all about that, wouldn't you Slutzky?

I think questionable is quite the understatement. On the thoughtfull scale, it ranks dead at the fucking bottom.

But that's okay, because as you said, it made me laugh. And you're here for a lot more than that, faggotface.

I don't much care about my own birthday anymore...which is a lie, I guess. It hurts more than anything. It's all painful memories on top of missing people. I wish it would just go away.

I hope you don't swear on the lord.

ASSHOLE.

Not sure that's an ideal ending.

BUT FUCK IT>

[slutsky]

p.s. isn't it hilarious? it's like slutzky is actually leaving these comments for you.