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Part CCXXII - where late nights return empty-handed
It's nights like this I used to write. I used to think I had poignant things to say, and for whatever reason they only came out at 2am in a silly blog that 500 of my closest friends and strangers had access to. I used to think I was so smart writing out my life to the internet at large, so they could get a glimpse of who I was, or wanted to be, and ( Read more... ) -
Part CCCXXI - where clarity loses focus
Sometimes I feel like I have these moments of clarity. Where everything makes sense, and nothing, all at the same time. Like I'm spinning out of control, but my self-reflection is crystal clear, and still, like a river that's just stopped all its current. and it's terrifying, terrifying to think that...maybe that's all there is to it. maybe there's ( Read more... ) -
Part CCCXX - where I reach out to touch someone but I can't lift my arm
i have this song stuck in my head - it's the one from the devil wears prada, when she's moping about because mr. i'm-super-hot-in-entourage-but-i-was-also-cute-back-in-the-day-in-drive me crazy is not in love with her anymore.
and all i keep hearing over and over again is
i can't sleep. i can't speak to you. i can't sleep.and i'm sure there are ( Read more... ) -
Part CCCXIX - where getting lost seems familiar
today's not a great space. it's one of those where i wonder why everything doesn't seem to fit right. and it's not that i didn't have a good day, because usually nights like these come after everything has gone surprisingly right ( Read more... ) -
Part CCCXVIII - where Barnes & Noble creates introspection
In the middle of reading To Feel Stuff by Andrea Seigel ( Read more... ) -
peer pressure meme
a meme for bonnie.
i'm in the mood to photoshop, but inspiration is failing me.
leave me 1-3 of your favorite things, and i'll draw you something.
[i'm not promising you'll have it in a reasonable amount of time] -
fuck parts of the story, i just want to stop shaking!
it's 1:50 in the morning, and i'm sure my posting at such an hour doesn't really surprise anyone. maybe that i'm posting at all might be a little jarring, but even still. 2am blogging where i'm whining is the norm. it's been the norm for 7 years now ( Read more... ) -
Part CCCXVII - where goals outweigh resolutions, and sink the future into the ground
some days i really miss the past. some days i can't be more glad that i'm rid of it. everyone likes to say they're a different person after a few years, but the truth is, we just branch out. we change, but we're still the same. the same traps we fell into then, at least half of them we'd fall into all over again ( Read more... ) -
why not share the happy side?
i decided i ought to start posting things i'm proud of. because all i seem to do is whine. not that this isn't a wonderful place to vent, but i'm happy a lot of the time. and it's time that people got to see that side of me too. and the side of me that actually shows my interests ( Read more... )
