so this is an update to yesterday. i went back to the carnival tonight, with two kids from my therapy group. judy & candace. we had a fun time. it poured, but hey, what are you going to do? so steph came back too, we hung out, went on a couple rides, just had a good time ( Read more... )

i like girls!
and i don't understand why it's such a big fucking deal.

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my rhyme ain't good just yet,
my brain and tongue just meti feel like i'm drifting through space. like i'm back to existing, but i'm not really living. i stare blankly at this screen for hours a day and just do nothing. i put on music, but nothing soothes this dull ache in my stomach for something more. i don't have the energy to put myself out ( Read more... )

i feel invisible. like i'm screaming but no one notices.

♥ show some heart ♥

march 01 // self-injury awareness day

imagine me and you, i do
i think about you day and night, it's only right
to think about the girl you love and hold her tight
so happy together

"get messy in life. at least you know you're living."

here, a little sympathy for you to waste on me
i know you're faking it but that's okay

"you're cute."
"...thanks. ... that's the first time i've ever said thanks to that."
"what if i said you were beautiful?"
"i'd say stop."
"stop? why? because you are. you are beautiful."
"no. i'm not."

here, a little jealousy ( Read more... )

i did it to myself. set myself up to fall, to hurt her. just like i knew it would. just like i did to matt. "i hate liars." and i'd mumble to myself "so did matt." and i thought "i won't do that. i really like her. i won't jeopardize this." and then i got scared. and i started playing the game. i wanted to hurt you like you hurt me. "it doesn't ( Read more... )

watch the black-haired girl play guitar
i think i'm falling for heraddicting how a little confidence can catch your eye. can't turn away from the sex appeal and the charm. the way she moves, the black wristbands (plastic, like the ones that style all the high school brats) that she holds over her head as she moans and yells into the microphone. the ( Read more... )

you wouldn't want to get to know me if you knew everything i was about. you would turn around and run the other way because you'd see that i'm just as worthless as you originally assumed. you wouldn't be interested in all the gory details, you'd hear the same pathetic and twisted fairy tale you've read in online journals thousands of times. it's ( Read more... )