Starting from scratch. I'm putting all my old work in a box and putting it away. While I have tried to get my past work out into the world, I just can't bear to look at it anymore. I put it in a box a long time ago because I didn't want to look at it. I brought it out to climb a ladder. I'm done with it ( Read more... )

I find it humorous to tell how I have been living. Finding all the change in my apartment to buy a 6 pack of PBR just so I can get drunk for a night. I stood there for at least 5 minutes at Dominicks feeding the machine mostly pennies, nickels, and dimes. Am I an alcoholic? Who cares! I like laying low, having no obligations to hang out with ( Read more... )

I'm not sure I like living here anymore ( Read more... )

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:::having little or no money habitually ( Read more... )

I like good mornings and genuine friends.
I have a good feeling about all of this.


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i'm a loner dottie, a rebel.

Do you ever feel like you've completely lost your mind. Not in the sense of being crazy and psychotic, but rather unable to remember things. Obvious things. I have been feeling this way for the past 2 days more intensely, although it has been this way for a while. I can remember when I made these same lifestyle changes before I relapsed back ( Read more... )

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I've never been on this side of this sort of letdown. I don't know what to do.

I can't get myself to focus on anything today. I have things I'd like to read, math to do. But I'm anxious as hell. These thoughts consume and then lose me. I hate the things I do when I'm nervous, I try to do mindless activities--the dishes, picking up shit, but they don't seem take my mind out of that frame. I should go for a run or bike ( Read more... )