like homer's stress food is donuts, mine is bagels. i like nibbling on em till it hurts my jaws. it's a good stress-reliever. btw, im in another episode of MDD. wish me luck, people.

officially in love with billy joel.

i daydream about george clooney so that i can block out other thoughts and not feel so guilty about any sapphic fantasies i might have.

i bought a guitar. it's cute and sexy although i dont know how to do anything with it yet. i was gonna give it a male, dead man's name, but i changed my mind. i named it 'amber.' it's yellow and cute/slim/sexy. yeap you could say that i miss my old shrink. anyway, wish me luck with amber the guitar :)

i just watched a documentary on a paranoid schizophrenic woman on weta. (what a huge mistake!)
she takes the same anxiety/sleep medication i take. ativan. i feel so crazy. im not schizophrenic, am i?
(actually i think schizophrenics dont think they are schizophrenic, so i think im just hypochondriac. what a relief!)

im high
freud died
im not sad
i just feel hot
yea, im high, again

sorry people but im breaking my promise.
im drinking again, but differently.
first im under my father's supervision.
second im drinking only moderately.

no cold turkey.

okay, lastnight was a bit shitty and i wrote a poem following amber's advice to write down what's going on in my head ( Read more... )

today's session was fucking awesome. i talked about so much i actually ran out of stuff by the 43rd minute ( Read more... )

i love my first amendment rights

the pot song

"i wish i had s'more fine weeeeed
that is what i truly wish to have
i wish i had s'more sweet weeeeed
then everything will turn out just alrighttt"

okay, im officially letting everyone know that im quitting drinking. so, if you see me drinking, chastise me. (im laughing, liz ( Read more... )