how stupid and cliche that sounds but right now thats how it feels. my life feels like it means nothing now. its felt like that for awhile but whatever i felt i had, now i feel it is gone. i havent lived the most perfect life since i graduated. in fact ive been fighting almost a losing struggle against drugs for awhile now. i think i have fried my ( Read more... )

since i ever wrote in this shit. yes i am back. time to rant on here and be negative and what not. u know why? because i have to write down how i feel. i got multiple journals but this one is just for those who really know me and have been around me since i was in high school, middle schoool etc. though at this point i doubt many of you even still ( Read more... )

saying hello to people. i know i have abandoned this for awhile. perhaps i will get into it soon again ( Read more... )

FUCK THE POLICE AND ANY FORM OF SUPPOSED LAW ENFORCEMENT ITS ALL FUCKING BULLSHIT. FROM THIS POINT I HATE COPS WITH A PASSION. THOUGH I WONT SHOW IT AT ALL TIMES. FIRST THEY BREAK APART THIS BACKYARD PUNK ROCK SHOW I WAS AT. NOW THEY ARREST MY FRIEND IN PALMDALE ON SOME BULL SHIT REASONS. FUCK MAN I SWEAR TO GOD COPS JUS PISS ME OFF SOO MUCH RIGHT ( Read more... )

and i bet people havent really given a shit. but meh o well. we got our own lives to look after right? well lets see....this has been one of the coldest winters in redlands. fuuckin snowed last week. water freezes easily by this time of night. im surprised there havent been many crashes. and yea. we got our frat house back so back to partyin there ( Read more... )

my life is slowly getting back on track. i cant wait til thanksgiving break but i dunno if i really wanna go home. im kinda broke and dont want my parents to give me money really. i owe them alot. i also dont want to get lectured as i usually do especially after these past few months. and yea. blah. so here are things to accomplish this week ( Read more... )

wow this world is really going down the shithole. we got the world putting so much fucking focus on iraq, iran and north korea and nothing positive is coming out of it. we got iraq fucking going into chaos with everyone for themselves pretty much and the US not doing any better and helping keep the violence down. hell president bush has already ( Read more... )

but yea despite the lack of me going to class and what not i am doing pretty well in school haha. oooo i love it. take that u study freaks haha. but yea.......my fucking shoulder hurts and what not. i need to get better by tomorrow so i can party my ass of this weekend as any other weekend. Am i a drunkard?.........NAAAAAAW!!! lol i jus like to ( Read more... )

shit fuck ( Read more... )

im not coming home for another week. yes you heard that another week. =( im getting a bit homesick already. i dont like this wandering around. i feel like a bum. but yea i gotta stay its work. sigh i need shit to do and people to chill but yea. anywho i get paid on friday so im happy that prolly means ima chill around for awhile and see where i can ( Read more... )