every day
i walk to the cafe
hoping i'd see you
knowing i won't see you

every day
i take the same fucking table at the cafe
buy the same fucking coffee from the cafe
hoping i'd see you
knowing i'll never see you.

every day
i live this way
hoping i'd see you
knowing i'll never ever get to meet you.

today i thought of you. again.
and i really wish you'd be happy.
learn to be happy. 
want to be happy.

sometimes i wish you were not the way you are - 
even though i love you because you are who you are. 
i love you for being that fucked up freakass.

but today -
(it's strange, really.)
i wish you were ignorant. 
and i wish you were someone i'd not care ( Read more... )

if i were to write some weirdfuck naturalistic play
everyone would be eating hearts while they laugh and cry and laugh and cry and laugh and cry and continue to laugh and cry.

why is it not raining today?!
if it were.. i would have an excuse not to go for that bloody field trip.
oh well. 
go, kai. go.

After having only about two hours of sleep, I woke to the noise of my dog’s barking still affected by what you said last night. (Or rather, earlier this morning.) I felt a slight ache in my heart - an ache that managed to maneuver itself into my arms, my legs, my fingers, my toes, and even my face. I can’t open my mouth to speak despite really ( Read more... )

HONG XINYING ( Read more... )

it's quite funny, really. 
i keep thinking of you when i write.
and yet, i don't love you. 
even though when i write, it almost seems like i do. 

i remember the last time you smiled ( Read more... )

bloody hell.
bloody pretentious pieces of shit!

you act like some fucking innocent thing
and it's really annoying
because i've grown to like you
love you
care about you

but now i know
that you and the one you're with
are nothing but a-holes.

everyone is just a fucking little lab experiment
so that you can get inspired
so that you can feel loved
all you want is to feel that you're better than everyone else

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