sometimes i wonder if my parents might actually LIKE this crazy and psychotic relationship of ours. because everytime it seems like we MIGHT be on the path to a sane conversation, they do something that makes me think, "ok. we can yell at each other some more. obviously u like that more than peace." why is that? is our relationship so beyond repair ( Read more... )

I am beyond exhaustion. i hate 8 hour work shifts. but since i need the money....*sigh* on a brighter note, the official gift exchange with everyone is tonight. should be fun. i just...idk, i'm not really in the mood. for anything. well that's not true...im in the mood for a lot of things, just not what i end up doing and throwing so much time into ( Read more... )

i am working an ungodly amount of hours in the next 2 weeks ( Read more... )

i have time. to do stuff. i have a very minimal amount of hw. i have time. i should be doing stuff that i haven't had time to do. i think i've forgotten how to relax.

fantastic.

this week cannot be more hectic. what i really want at the moment is for break to start...right now. but who am i kidding? there's still 9 more days until i can finally relax and do nothing. that sounds almost too good to be true: do nothing. when was the last time i did that? hmm. at least research papers are over and done with. that's seriously a ( Read more... )

( 2005... )

i skipped for the first time in my entire life today. and some might not even call it skipping. although i did call myself in once i got home, i called my mom right after to let her know. she was ok with it. lol but this is about as skip-ish and rebel-like i can get. well thats a lie. i can be a bigger rebel than that. just not very often ( Read more... )

i was extremely productive today. i sat my ass down at the library for 4 hours and did a huge medical assisting packet and wrote another 1/3 of my research paper. i love this accomplished feeling. its probably due to the fact that i dont experience it very often that when i do, i really really treasure it. im a sad sad ap kid. i know ( Read more... )

sometimes i tend to forget how good i have it. i get wrapped up in small things that dont go my way and i automatically switch into the oh so angst-y "i hate my life it sucks" mood. when really. i have it pretty good. i dont think i've ever been this happy or content with life. like i've always been...okay. but not really on the positive side. ( Read more... )

( in the spirit of thanksgiving... )