new journal ho

i just read some of my journal entries and i'm actually surprised at what a fucking idiot i sound like. in just about every entry i said something along the lines of "now i'm gonna shape up and get my life back on track" but i never did. fuck that shit. i couldn't picture my life any other way. i've been living really raw and for once i actually ( Read more... )

i'm chillin at eric's watchin reno 911. he came over around 7 then i bought some smokes then went on a wild goose chase to find some drugs but ended up getting some triple cs. i should be floating some time soon. i knocked up liz but she's not keeping it. i think i hit a new low. the other day someone asked me if i was on crack and i actually had ( Read more... )

I've been a lot happier than usual even though a lot of the dumb shit I did is starting to catch up with me. I caught a case for kicking the window out of a cop car in the end of October but I'm not getting charged as an adult so Alli if you see me in teen court say a little prayer for me. By the way I'm in love with you incase you didn't know. ( Read more... )

p.s. if you're in a bad mood get drunk and hang up christmas lights in your room and never take them down.

is regretful even a word? i don't know. i'm starting to think that god is somewhere laughing at me because i refuse to take the lessons from the bad shit that keeps happening. my best friend is dead because he wasn't more careful. i try to feel sorry for him but i'm pretty sure he died happy with that god damn smirk on his face that he has whenever ( Read more... )

days like this i'm glad god made certain plants grow to make the time pass by quicker ( Read more... )

nothing makes much sense anymore. i tripped on acid a little while ago and the whole day was a fucking nightmare. for one thing i started drinking non stop to make the trip stop but that didn't help much. i ended up calling chelsey but when she hung up i stole my mom's car to go to her house and play songs on her lawn until she fell back in love ( Read more... )

so i just got done kickin it in court. my mom paid my fine for me so all i have is the thing on my record and no jail time. tight as shit. i went in there drunk as hell just to calm my nerves a bit but no one noticed. this morning i took some money from my mom's purse but she didn't notice that either. i'm about to go get a quart and some cigs ( Read more... )

i'm so hungover. i need to do something tonight. i'm at alex's right now and i can't get a hold of anyone. last night we went to a birthday party for this girl at ft. desoto and got drunk as all hell and that was a good time. i ended up crashing here and i'm trying to find someone to chill with incase Alex gets tired of me suckin up all the air. ( Read more... )