yesterday was Jill's funeral. I went with britt, heather, and bobby. We went really early because we knew there'd be so many people there. It was the sadest day in my life, I cried so hard that I made my self sick, I couldn't even breathe at one point. Talking to her parents was so hard and her brother. I love her family so much there such great ( Read more... )

This week has been the longest week of my life and it's finally over. I never knew loosing someone that was once was so close to you could be this painful. I truely feel like I've gone threw hell and back, I've never expierenced this strong type of sadness. I can't believe tomorrow is the funeral. I don't even want it to come because I feel like ( Read more... )

Today I went to school and was almost late. I ran into homeroom and just barely made it, I sat there and heard them annouce that jill killed herself. "go to the conference room if you can't handle this," I went to first block and on my way I just ran into the bathroom and cried for 5 mins. Then went to class so everyone could stare at me. The sub ( Read more... )

I can't trust anyone, I can't rely on anyone. I just need to get far out of this place for good, or for a good 4-8 years.

Track starts in 10 days....so what did I do today you ask? Well my hardcore kick ass training consisted of coming home, sleeping, then wakeing up to eat pizza and drink some coke zero. I'm going to be a champ this year.

I hate my parents I hate my parents I hate my parents I hate my parents I hate my parents and I hate my brother even more. I'm sick of this shit I hate them all, Mike is the center of their life, all he does is fuck up and hes rude as hell and they practicly kiss his ass. No don't fight with him for three hours and then try and come and talk to me ( Read more... )

This week and weekend were slightly eventful. I didn't really do much but I suppose I have some stuff to talk about. First due to all of the teacher/administration/student drama going on at my school we had off tuesday. I took advantage and went to south street with Allison and Vanessa. It was the best time to go, there was no one there at all, I ( Read more... )

Work was good today up until 10 minutes before I was about to leave. I stayed two hours later today and I was so tired. Just as I was about to get off....."oh laura before you leave we are having a group meeting." The managers basicly told us that we all suck and that we are the worst bob evans in NJ and if we don't get better we are getting " ( Read more... )

I've been so angry lately its not even funny. Me and my dad have NOT been getting a long and its so annoying. Yesterday before I was about to leave to go to school my dad bangs on my door and yells at me for basicly washing my clothes. Someone left piles of their clothes over night in the washer and dryer. So me....the nice person that I am dryed ( Read more... )

I love art. I love creating things whether it be with a pencil, paint brush or just my hands. I just want to create things for a living I want to live in a big city and paint and draw all day. I wish life was as simple as that just being whatever you want and loving every minute of it.