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k im at work. so updateing is difficult

last night i cried my eyes out for atleast an hour..

and not even just crying. like couldnt walk or hold myself up crying
you dont understand what is going on right now.
infgact im not sure i do either
i need my dad
i just want to hug him. i feel safe in his arms
im not safe

moving in 5 days..

yey?

i am not going to school for the rest of the year. i cannot fucking handle it... im quite disturbed with some shit. because my friends are idiots.. well atleast i tohught they were my friends... how the fuck could they hang out with him. i fucking hate everyone... last night i think i had some kind of nervous break down or something like it

didnt go to school today... i think im too much of a wreck to do anything with my life.

i think i need counseling. ha

maybe if you keep telling yourself you're okay you'll be okay. doubt it. im not.. maybe you will be. im a wreck. if i am un occupied for even the slightest second i want to kill myself. dont talk like that. my mind lastely is out of control. i feel it exploding. my heart keeps sinking into my stomach. its a unberable pain. i havent been able to ( Read more... )

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

i seriously was sooo upsettoday.i think i cried in at leat 4of my claasess. vince has hurtme. but i have also hurt hin. what... no. have i? evidentally. i missmy dad.  do you? yes. why? because. i just wish ididnt have to be this way. i love him. but its obviously we cant live together. i shouldnt have left. i dont know. yes. no. vince shouldnt ( Read more... )

i would update more info.. but right now i just cant.
sorry everyone

i miss my boyfriend
and jessica

*hmph*
=)

i fucking HATE auburn

im at work and im extremly bored. i need to find a new job. serrriously! ummm. this sucks. im tierd. i actually went to school the whole day.. wasnt that bad. although my heath / gym teacher HATES me. i seriously never did anything to her. fucking bitch. um. my eyes wont stay open to well. i fell asleep on the porch last night. i frooooze. till my ( Read more... )