I can't get out of eating, he wont let me and it drives me mad. It's like he knows what I'm thinking. I've managed to get down to about 1000 cals a day without him knowing anything is wrong but I can't start the ABC diet yet because there's no chance I'll go unnoticed. It's gonna be so horrible if I have to stop seeing him as much just so I don't ( Read more... )

A lot has changed in the past few months, I've got a new boyfriend and he makes me feel like I'm fine just the way I am which is lovely but at the same time so horrible because I'm slowly losing the control I have over what I eat. I stuff my face as if I'll never see food again (which probably wouldn't be a bad thing considering how much weight I' ( Read more... )

I literally can't eat normally. I've tried and it makes me feel sick knowing how much 'normal' people eat. I've been in recovery for about a couple of months and I put on loads of weight. I got a full length mirror today and oh my fucking god I am huge.  I am so so so huge. I actually can't believe how fat I am now. I know I need to do something ( Read more... )

I was fasting yesterday and I was going to today but I thought I should eat an apple because i'm going to the gym in a minute and I hate getting all weird and dizzy. It's weird becuase I dont have a big appetite, i'm not really 'into' food but I seem to just eat because it's part of my normal routine. I'm gonna try and break that and eat when I am ( Read more... )

I'm really happy to be here, I feel like crap that i'm a bit of a lardcake but at least I'm doing something about it, I would love some tips on how to curb the hunger pains or even some people to talk to about my eating disorder. People seem to get really pissed off with me when I try to talk to them about it as if i'm attention seeking or just ( Read more... )