it's been a long time since i've written in this thing. i'm drunk and i'd like to drink some more. my boyfriend is watching me write this, although he isn't drunk at all. i'd still like to go to jared jewelers some day. that would make me really happy but woudl really make him mad. "you're silly, erase all that" but yet he goes to see what ( Read more... )

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I've tryed to help and I've given every ounce of support I possibly could, but my encouragement apparently does no good. (Too bad it won't stop here, get pissed.) Am I only making things more difficult, am I only adding more stress? (It doesn't matter. "Give up" is not in my vocabulary.) Yet, the only think I can think about is the name Oliver.

I'm back here again. Feeling as though I'm just another body walking down the street. It's the same thing, the same exact thing everyday, although there's nothing can really do about it, yet. I want to move on with my life. I need a change, some kind of life changing one. I'm starting to dance again, maybe this is the break I'm looking for ( Read more... )

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+ im quitting my job today. i have to finish out the week, then im out of that hell hole. yay ( Read more... )

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i must have all four of my wisdom teeth removed next wednesday. one is already infected and hurts like a bitch...yippie! and since i wont be able to eat any candy or any type of food that is in a solid state for a few days, you are more then welcome to bring me as much chocolate pudding, yogurt, and ICE CREAM as you'd like ( Read more... )

i hate bad dreams. the ones you wake up from feeling as though they are real, like you've just had the biggest loss of your life. it keeps happening to me. every morning i wake up thinking someone in my family has died, or ive lost my friends, hes with someone else, or im with someone else. the dreams stay with me though out the day, giving me ( Read more... )

i have a headache and a stomache, not to mention a heartache. im sorry im stupid sometimes, i dont mean to be, im still learing.

please don't ever leave, i don't think i could handle it.