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repeating past endevers
so there it is again. this thing i can't stop.... my mind from thinking and driving me more insane. so i now have to stop all this madness. trying again something that might help, it helped last time it just hurt like hell when i stopped. I can't keep doing these same things over and over again. it's literally driving me mad and defining me as ( Read more... ) -
True intentions
So i have been thinking about moving back to Marietta and in with an old roommate. I'm going back and forth on the issue. He told me that i would be unhappy moving back with nothing else to do except Kroger. He is right. Though he is there and the thought of hiking and rowing are very inviting I know that I can come visit him whenever and I ( Read more... ) -
a poem from St. Valentine King
sweet chocolate in my mouth ( Read more... ) -
whats inside me
what is inside me, way deep down, is a mytery even to me. A scared little girl, searching for hidden mysteries in the dark. A young woman looking for love in all the wrong places, not knowing it will be found within her. Watching everything that meant so much change or dissapear all together. Tears sliding down, sliding down. Finding hope and ( Read more... ) -
so far so gone
i sat here wondering aboutthe dos and donts, not really knowing where to draw the line. And then i realize that I too simply choose to not see what is really surrounding me. it is not that which i wanted it to be. now the chance will never come. I suppose it was never meant to be. I wasn't one of the lucky ones. maybe during the next life, ( Read more... ) -
floating
i am running, i am scared, i know not of what or whom, but i stand quietly by burning with confusion and fury. demanding to be seen, yet still ignored. more and more the truth is seen through the rosemary glasses of red wine. the bitter first taste of beer lingers until the stinch of what is not quite right becons my attention. the basis for what ( Read more... ) -
proof
I just watched Proof. How many times have I been made to feel as if I were indeed crazy? Many I must say. From recalling events that my family says never happened to my “crazy” womanly actions, thoughts, and feelings. No matter who denies these things it never fails to leave me questioning myself and my sanity. Having had a bout of insanity due ( Read more... ) -
why dont I....
why dont i risk it all? why dont i take that vacation in another nation? why dont i venture out and discover all that i dream about? why dont i say fuck it to all the bills and responsibility and do what i wish? why dont i believe in myself, believe that it is possible, anything is possible? why dont i have faith in anything, not even myself? why ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
Your Deadly SinsEnvy: 60%Sloth: 60%Pride: 40%Greed: 20%Lust: 20%Wrath: 20%Gluttony: 0%Chance You'll Go to Hell: 31%You will die at the hands of a jealous lover. How ironic.
How Sinful Are You?
