lalala,lalala...i'd do anythinnnng for you ( Read more... )

you talked to me today about trust.

how is it then, that you have somehow become the one person that i feel that i can really trust? how did you do that?

then i began thinking about it. and thinking and thinking. and now writing and writing.

( is it wrong? )

how interesting.

how sickening.

how utterly, utterly absurd.

this has been the strangest month of my entire life. it seems that so much has happened, that there could not possibly have been a time before it. i found myself wondering yesterday, what "normal"  life was like. i know that i didn't always feel this way, didn't have this many intense ( Read more... )

i don't know what i intend on writing. it was all going to be about my awesome night, about how i love my friends. about being loud at seven bridges, desperately searching for a parking spot, talks at starbucks, all laying across maria's bed while listening to them laugh and spending an hour just sitting in the car talking about everything ( Read more... )

how does it feel to be betrayed?

you know. stabbed in the back. then they twist.

how does it feel to be betrayed by your best friends?

ditched.

forgotten.

how does it feel when they call you bitch ?

how about whore ?

how does it feel when they mean it?

gunther has been stuck in my head all morning and early afternoon, as it is now 2:24. i cannot decided whether that is an incredible blessing or a dastardly curse. if you too want to have gunther take over your thoughts, go to gunthernet.com. seriously- do it.

i have these little prism, crystal-y things hanging in my window and ( Read more... )

for some reason i keep thinking about garden state. and the shins song ( Read more... )

sick she says ( Read more... )

thus concludes act one: the build-up act. it climaxed.

thus begins act two: the downfall, sorting-out act. but how does it end?

i feel...emptied.

right when i think things are beginning to look far sunnier, they seem to fall straight back down again, hitting a cement floor with a sickening, stomach-churning thud.

i'm not quite sure how i am supposed to be feeling right now. i ( Read more... )