i pretty much gave up theres not point to even try to wake up and be like hey , i know someone cares about me .. i never will. im not  wieing or crying bout it but.. lauren perraglias life sucks , love will never be in my vocabulary , its unheard of litteraly.

i hate me

I haven't wrote in a long time, so I think i'll start agian. well right now.. things arent too bad. except for the fact that i wantt this person really bad. im so lonely i want him!

id tell you what happend this weekend but im BRAIN DEAD

it's like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife

It's meeting the man of my dreams

And then meeting his beautiful wife

thanks Melissa

And isn't it ironic... don't you think

i really dont understand the meaning of life, to be born , to have such strong feelings for nothing , so one day we just die

i fucking hate everything..

Life's weird. everything is just weird.

Talking to Melissa last night made me realize that I'd probably be the most depressed person without her.. even when everything is down ,  she'll make everything up. I was kinda selfish .. all I did was hope I could be happy and just not be as happy for others . I think if your just content with what you have and how you are right now is all that ( Read more... )

Have you ever thought, like I just want to be happy. I dont even want a lot. I just want to look around and be like yeah, my life is good. And now ,when everythings changed with people they go there seperate ways , it's so hard being in the middle. Knowing what every ones perspective is and how they feel just makes me worry and try to make things ( Read more... )

I look at such happy people and there just so lucky they have such chemistry with the ones they love, really the GRAND essentials of happiness are something to do, something to love, and something to hope for. When thiss door of happiness closes just some another one opens but we look so long at the closed door that we don't see and there is the ( Read more... )

I really don't have any gratitude what so ever. I'm just alone. There's nothing for me, nothing to look forward to.. waking up every day knowing that no one cares for you it heart breaking.

i hope this is just me, me being insecure..