A lot has happened. I'm completely different now. My mom passed away a year ago from cancer and I don't know who I am anymore. I do know that I'm not happy. That I'm not ok, that I miss her more than anything in the world and I'd give anything to have her back. I cannot deal with it as much as I pretend that I can, I've been wearing a "happy mask" ( Read more... )

I haven't written in here in who knows how long. But its late and I really have no one to talk to. And that kills me, even if it were the middle of the day I don't know who I could say anything to without them being afraid I might be crazy. The number one thing right now is that I miss my mom, I hate that I cannot pick up a phone and just talk to ( Read more... )

hmm instead of giving a complete description of whats been going on with me since february im just going to list somethings ( Read more... )

i miss you, i miss us, i miss it all.

have you ever found yourself watching everything and everyone around you, including yourself? thats all ive done this week, was be an observer. Monday feels like weeks ago, after school i went to starbucks with lea, i was so glad to spend some time with her, i missed her so much. We had a good conversation about so many different things. And monday ( Read more... )

so its been a while... nothing wonderful has happened... basically everything keeps going down hill..for those of you who dont know my life story...i live in my great grandmothers house and have my whole life..she got sick a few monthes ago while visiting my great aunt's family in nevada and she came home in the middle of last month and shes ( Read more... )

what has happened to me? for a while i was really happy but now im lonely and extremely self concious and im acting stupid but at the same time im doing a lot better in school. how come i feel like i look like shit twenty four seven and why am i constantly trying to impress everyone, even people i hate. howcome i find myself so lonely even when im ( Read more... )

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