AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! Ok, that didn't really help. Guess I am just having a rough day. Why do they both haunt my memories and stir such confusion? Today has been a good day, I just have things plaguing my mind it seems. Well, I have vented, so I am gonna go try and get a little bit of sleep before work tomorrow.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok, that didn't help much, but i thought i would give it a shot. i just wanna scream my lungs out sometimes. i'm just so confused about so much right now. i can't wait until next wed. i need to leave for a while and just have some fun and get myself together. every time i turn around, someone i love is doing ( Read more... )

ok, the birthday was AWESOME..........here's a summary, lol ( Read more... )

i think i'm done w/ going after guys for a while. maybe it's time to just embrace being single, and not fool w/ it. there's no point in liking guys who don't like you back, so i guess i am giving up for now. i don't understand why guys don't seem to like me any more than just a friend. it would be awesome if i could find a guy who thought i was ( Read more... )

i feel really confused lately. so much on my mind that i guess i just don't know how to make my mind up. is there anything steady in this life. i know God will always be there for me. i really need him right now. i am struggling with something very hard right now, and it is killing me inside. i don't really know if i'm ready to talk about it, but i ( Read more... )

doing much better than i was in my previous entries, which people who don't have lj can't see, b/c ya have to be added to my friends (srry). thanx to those who were there for me. i love ya'll so much. i will update more when i am more awake. gonna go get some sleep now. nite.
<3
bethany

sometimes i just wanna be somewhere else. sometimes, i feel like i can't handle what's being thrown at me. right now i feel like i wanna run, and just be free for a moment. but i know that i must learn to be strong and let Christ guide me through rough times. i know i will see brighter days, as long as i hold on to my Savior and trust in Him fully ( Read more... )

figured it was time to update. hung out w/ hope thursday and played lots of pool. hope spent the night and we just cut up all day friday. friday evening, went riding around w/ Hope and Angel and had tons of fun. ended up stayin up most of the night trying to fix Angel's mp3 player, which turned out to be messed up. lol ( Read more... )

had a great day. felt somewhat sick this morning, but after i got outta the house i felt better. hung out with Hope and acted crazy, and had lots of fun. used the movie gallery card i got at chinese christmas yesterday. got some new movies to check out and all ( Read more... )

i have so much on my mind tonight. there are so many things i need to work out and i have somewhat been afraid to do so, but there is no use in waiting. i have been praying most of the day and talking w/ the Lord about everything going on. i'm just kinda confused about some stuff i guess ( Read more... )