Broken down inside,
A feeling that never fades.
What's the point in sleeping,
If dreaming leads to pain?
A broken life a broken dream.
A window shattered at my feet.
A face of fear, a face of loss,
Alwyas felt but never seen.
A life unlived
An imagined place inside my head.
All is lost, All is dead.

Well once again I haven't written in ages. I graduate in like two weeks...Holy Shit!!! This is craziness, and I might wind up in North Carolina for a year which is even more crazy! Yeah I have nothing else right now peace out!!

I am beginning to doubt my ability to be a successful counselor. It seems like lately I can't communicate effectively with new people and it all feels so artificial and intimidating. I feel so lost and I know that part of it is my own insecurities getting in the way of me doing this but I feel like I keep failing. I don't know what to do with ( Read more... )

Global Personality Test Results Stability (15%) very low which suggests you are extremely worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.
Orderliness (63%) moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly organized, reliable, neat, and hard working at the expense of flexibility, efficiency, spontaneity, and fun.
Extraversion (70%) high ( Read more... )

Right now I feel like death. I haven't slept, I've been crying constantly. I'm fighting with my boss and I'm so stressed out that I've been shaking. This weekend is Hot Dog Day and I won't even be able to enjoy it. I hate my job so much right now and i feel so sick from the stress. I think I'm going to skip my morning classes tomorrow. Somebody ( Read more... )

I am home now...still not sure how I feel about it but it's been good so far. I miss Gene so much already but I know we'll make it through the summer. I start working with my sister on Monday...full time for the first time...woo hoo wish me luck, I'll need it. I start my driving lessons on the 29th so that's cool, I'll finally be getting my ( Read more... )

I feel like I did so much today, I'm just sooo tired ( Read more... )

So my body still hurts from working the concert friday night, it was a good show overall, alot of energy, I was just so beat from building the stage that morning but it was worth it just to hear the Black Eyed Peas sing "Lets Get Retarded" for free....yay free stuff rules even if it means killing my body....okay maybe not. Gene is sick...blah!! I ( Read more... )

Yup that's right I said you all suck. In fact if you all dropped dead there's a good possiblity that I wouldn't care. With the exception of my family, Nari, Carlos, and Gene maybe a couple others but not many. As Nari stated earlier everyone is being a douche and guess what I don't have time for douches because they cause yeast infections and yeast ( Read more... )

I've been home from school for a week now. I miss my mom. I never thought I'd lose her so soon. My mom meant the world to me, I should have showed her that more often, I should've helped her out more and spent more time with her. Maybe if I had she'd still be here with me. The last time I spoke to her I was asking her for addresses for christmas ( Read more... )