Aaahhhhhhhhhhh yes and the weekend ends...

[lazydaisy84]

This might sound stupid but I actually want people to read my journal and yet no one does. Ah well life goes on. I suppose I will soon abandone this journal like I abandon most other projects that receive no response

Comments

[rickashay13]

yeah I hear you on the whole birthday issue not to mention I am turning 20 and I am no longer a teenager :( growing up deffinatley sucks hard core Im not doing shit for my birthday maybe a day at the amusment park with Ricky ...but I won't have you there and that chaps my ass big time ...I would have planned a party for you but I was afraid of it sucking cause i have no cash and no car and besides who would I invite ...well if you need space and time away form commitment then I understand I have been there myself so just remember I am here when you need me and if you need to talk , love shay

[lazydaisy84]

Shannon no offense but that's crap. You know that regardless of the fact that I won't be around you're going to have a great time with Ricky at Six Flaggs. How can you say " I'm not doing shit, maybe a day at the amusment park" like that's nothing????? Plus you know that if you wanted to do something else Ricky would take you anywhere and do anything on your birthday. You and Ricky have been so consumed with this apartment thing and just each other that I'm sure you'll have a great birthday without me......whatever anyways it doesn't matter.

[rickashay13]

It makes me really sad that you would say that and I am hurt by your comment ...because of coarse I am going to be upset that my best friend isn't going to be around for my birthday I was really hoping that you would be able to go

[lazydaisy84]

Shannon I'm sorry for what I said. I was in a really terrible mood when I wrote that and I was overreacting to certain circumstances. I know that doesn't excuse my being hurtfull but it's all I can say. To be perfectly honest though, sometimes it gets really difficult to be around you and Ricky. I know you don't mean to make me feel this way and I know you try very hard not to, but I often feel like a third wheel and like i'm just tagging along. You know I love you to death and our friendship means so much to me and you know I think Ricky's great and I'm glad you guys are so happy together but sometimes it gets a little overwhelming to me. I wish I would be here for your birthday too and I'm sorry that this will be the second summer that I'm not. Anyways I'm sorry for hurting your feelings.