wow. words really cant explain how much my breath is taken away. i am so happy its ridiculous. i feel complete and for the first time in a very long time, there's no emptiness in my life whatsoever. she has filled every emptiness i have ever known. just, wow. this is what happiness really is!

grrr i need to go run errands but i'm scared of my water breaking in public lol call me crazy but thats happened in my dreams several times now!! and i have to go to like... 6 places.. and walking helps put you into labor anyway and... not like i dont wanna go into labor but... okay. someone needs to come with me to run my errands that'll solve my ( Read more... )

hahahaha. i just read through my entries from a few months ago. i suddenly feel smarter. i was saying all along, all those months ago, that i knew wade would be exactly how he really is! and the funny thing is, i AM painting again, i AM writing again. because i AM happy again. and what did i say? "mark is the one that's there for me all the time" ( Read more... )

even though wade's been trying to talk to me again, i still know deep down, he's not gonna be the father of my lil girl. my gut doesnt lead me wrong!

i got to spend all last night and today with myles.. the best kid ever. i love my nephew. he's preparing me for what it's gonna be like with my own kid :) and my other nephew, riley, is due to be born at anytime! my brother's wife went to the doctor and he said she's ready to go at anytime! i keep gettin this feeling about charlie. like he really ( Read more... )

going to orlando for some more shopping :) with my marky of course. one of my favorite people. him and i were talkin last night about the olden days.. my 21st birthday lol, and whatever happened to all our old pictures from back in the day. everyone says i'm gonna end up with him. i kinda laugh it off. i guess you do never know though. but another ( Read more... )

"a daddy is someone who cares, who is always there. for mommy and me while i'm still inside her belly, who sees my pictures before i'm even born. daddy talks to mommy's belly, that's why i know his voice the moment i'm born ( Read more... )

i'm on the phone with mark because i can't sleep. yeeaahh.. time's actually kinda moving now. i remember when i was like 7 weeks pregnant and thinking this would never end. now i'm almost at 18, and 20 is the halfway point. i'm starting my 5th month already, so its definitely starting to feel real to me.. i'm trying to think a little bit further ( Read more... )

i deleted all my old entries, about steven. goooood lord. i havent written in this journal in a damn year. time to start writing about this new chapter of my life :)

true that!