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Background story and What I plan on doing
In November of 2011 I joined a local group called FAD. It was a group that supported Female Domination in relationships. Yes I know it sounds odd, but it has been a part of who I am since i can remember. My husband is into CBT of a sorts and I thought that instead of just reading about it that maybe acting some of it out would helps. That and ( Read more... ) -
The dying Rose
I was once young and full of life.
just a bud on a stem.
I now I look haggard and Old
so failing and thin.
When will the drought finish
and will I still live
Can I cry and water my self
or will i fall through the sieve. -
Pain
Over the many years of going to the doctor I have been asked to describe my pain. Do you hurt here or there? How bad is the pain? Are you over reacting because you thought it would hurt? Are you sure you are not making this up ( Read more... ) -
Life is Hard
I am sick of life. I am in pain all the time now and the docs dont even know what it is. It is causing me not to have sleep. Miss school and lose my jobs. I hurt all over. The pain is so bad some days that all i can do is sit and rock back and forth while crying. I just want the pain to go away. What can? I do? -
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Humm idk i think i might hook up with partick again. He has changed and miss him. hummm i will sleep on it .
PS ozzfest and linkin park were awsome -
Moved again
I am up in the Mountains finaly. It is nice up here. Nice and calm. I have finally got me my first appartment. I love it. I got to bring my bird Gweeny. I also got a dog. Her name is Rose she is a sweet heart. I love it. It is very peaceful here. I am very content. My only complaint is that there is not that much nightlife. I have found ( Read more... ) -
The dark hole of dispiar
Life is soo hard. Why does it have to be. I have quite smoking now for three weeks but I am gaining weight. I look like a fat pig and none of my clothes fit me. The weight I have work my ass off for years is now a image of the past and it makes me cry. I am a horrible blob of wimpering fat that just wants to roll in her self lothing. I can't ( Read more... ) -
Hard times
What am I going to do. Lately things have caught up to me. I need to change my major becuase it was not what I expected it to be. Lately i have been looking for some new colleges that will have a major in Digital arts. That is one thing that love to do in my free time. On top of that school work has been over my head, but what else is new. ( Read more... ) -
POLL!!
Poll Free Time