So I made an offer to that person on Craigslist and spent the entirety of that day frantically checking my email every ten minutes. I'm not so good with spending a lot of money, but I'd really come to terms with it by the end of the night. And that's when I got her email. It said ( Read more... )

I have to start paying more attention in school, particularly in my accounting class. I think I need to block everything but MS Excel and the Ebook during that class so I don't distract myself. I mean the stuff I'm learning is stuff I actually have to know, and I'm still in the old "liberal arts what am I doing" mindset that says as long as I get ( Read more... )

I still don't like myself. It's not quite as appearance driven as it used to be, honestly. At least not right now. But I overlooked personality trying to change the outside. God, I feel so obnoxious. I talk and people don't say anything back, I don't know why it still hurts me. I say things and then hate myself for saying them. There are more parts ( Read more... )

*CRYING*
Spring break is over tomorrow! I have to go back to class!
Well...
My classes tomorrow aren't exactly "necessary" as far as I can tell.
But I've probs skipped them enough. ;.;

I'm feeling...weird lately. I feel like I'm acting all the time. There are very few people with whom I feel like I can be myself, and of them I've found that in many situations I am still uncomfortable and putting up a front. I'll say things just to say something, and it'll end up being something completely daft, and I'll immediately regret because ( Read more... )

I can't wait to be free. I can't wait for my life to belong to me and only me. I feel so pressured to be someone, I feel so stuck. I feel like I'm being judged constantly. I can't wait to start all over.

Sorry about the freak out last entry! I don't really know what happened, I had a break at school and was planning on doing work but instead had a minor mental breakdown haha. But it's all okay now, I had my accounting course on Thursday and I really did enjoy it. My teacher is interesting and I am a little behind what everyone else seems to be, but ( Read more... )

omg i am rethinking my major. i don't know what i'm doing anymore. is accounting really what i want? i don't know if i can handle that kind of stress...it's hard to explain. I can handle stress, sure but the kind that accountants face...I just don't know if it's a good fit anymore...oh my god and i was so sure! what will I tell Nanny and Poppy?

I have had a decent week so far. I got a pair of shoes at Forever 21 for $4, not entirely sure they're the most comfortable (still breaking them in) but for only $4, you cannot go wrong ( Read more... )

this whole thing is making my skin itch. i can't focus, i can't think straight, nothing makes sense, i don't know what to do. food is the only thing that's safe, but at the same time, it's the enemy. it's just like before...oh god, i thought i'd come so far, how can this be happening? it's not even my fault, it's not self-inflicted. how can i make ( Read more... )