So it's my birthday on Monday. I'm feeling my age lately. I just can't seem to connect with people that are 21 anymore. I know it's only a 8 year difference but it's enough to where I just feel like we have nothing in common. (yes that means I'm turning 29)I hate birthdays they are really so disappointing when you get older. Not like when you were ( Read more... )

Today i've been spending a bit of time thinking about saving for the future as i look up free crap on the internet. I am hoping to start getting things in order enough to save up and fly out to washington for a visit. I miss everyone. I'm getting homesick. I know i'm wierd i live in hawaii and all i can think about is going home to rainy washington ( Read more... )

Today is a long day and its only half over I woke up on a crappy air matress stiff and hurting cold and sniffling. I have been running around with josh all day sweating and being cold all at the same time.its 90 outside and the car is the most comforting spot I've been all day. We are trying to get the last of the signatures josh needs for his ( Read more... )

it seems lately i cant sleep for hours and then when i can sleep its like catchup sleep from being sleep deprived and i sleep for to long and feel groggy like when you take to much cold or alergy meds and its involentary groggy sleep. and tonight i just cant sleep at all. im wide awake and its nearing 1 am. that cant be normal.and i did lots of ( Read more... )

I'm so fucking angry right now i could fucking scream until I'm hoarse!!!! josh is such a fucking asshole!!! i hate men!! he has the worst fucking attitude i wish he would just pull his head out of his ass!!! i came home from taking the kids to school and josh is doing the dishes and hes listening to his music with headphones in, so i go over and ( Read more... )

im so stressed about things today. my kids are being rotten and its all i can do to not beat them. i took them all to the dentist today and that was terrible just that corbin needs 800 dollars worth of work done on his teeth and that what the insurance does NOT cover. and vash needs 500. im so getting a second opinion. beyond that we are out of ( Read more... )

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since i have been here in arizona i felt like a small mouse trapped in abox. i feel horrible and stiffeled here. but now i guess im adjusting i have found some nice people and accepted that it just sucks here and that i have to just find my niche. so here i am ive found a niche i can be me in my house and be me alot out in town and scare the old ( Read more... )

i have been putting alot of thought into how i feel about going to councelling and how i can help my self with my depression at home. i have been in a funk for a while now stressed and depressed with everything thats been going on and wondering what i can do to help my self when im stuck at home with kids. i need to get a job again and i need to ( Read more... )