At the end of the day when I put my PJs on and lay down I realize how sad I really am.  I don't know what's wrong with me.

It's an empty all around feeling, and I can't stand it anymore.

What do I do now??
Someone, please help me.

I hate being in love.

This is such fucking bullshit.

BULL.
SHIT.

It's been four months. How come we can't let each other go yet? I hate you, I hate your mother fucking guts. This needs to stop... I don't like you. I hate that we want each other. Why the fuck did you go and do this to us? I hate you. I HATE you.

... i love you.

HEY MELISSA!

I'VE HOOKED UP WITH RANDY MORE TIMES THAN I CAN COUNT SINCE YOU TWO HAVE BEEN TOGETHER.
SUP BITCH.

(NOT MY SISTER MELISSA, NOT YOU BABY.)

So I erased all the music from my ipod shuffle, I had all the music that reminded me of Randy on that ipod, it's gone now, it's kind of a... refreshing feeling, I'm finally restarting kind of thing.

Peace.

WOW I sure have been dead.  A lot more dead than you may think!

So Randolph and I broke up this past summer.  He's actually a cheating, manipulative piece of shit!  REALLY, HE IS.  Anyway, he cheated on me with a chick who's probably using him, and he has no business being with her, but whatever.  I saw it coming.  I am still in love with the kid, ( Read more... )

I'm slowly starting to realize that there's no way I can do anything strictly realism art-wise.  There's no way, I threw away a charcoal piece I had of just a tombstone.  Most of my AP concentration pieces are illustrations and not drawn from real life.  I will not take Oil Painting again, I refuse to.  I gave it a try, I didn't like it.  No big ( Read more... )

I'm actually reaaally happy to be back in school today, even if it was a half day oh well...  It was still, I don't know, much needed?  I only have two Seamonkeys left FHDGHFGDHGFHAGD.  I went to Randy's today, things are better (again).  We watched Live Free or Die Hard which was actually a really good movie.  and White Noise.  it was kind of gay ( Read more... )