breathe... just breathe... in and out... breathe ( Read more... )

confused ( Read more... )

its the holidays soon
im excited in a way
i cant wait till the parentals go away
a weeek of jorj+mitch+alcohol+beach+fun+weeeee+that someone,im not saying names+sleep+food+swimming
oh lots of fun things... i cant wait

im at that "i dont know what to type" stage again...

i wrote this big spill in here this afternoon, then i ended up backspacing it all and writing nothing... it was basically along the lines of people not appreciating what they have....
and people moping over things that are quite irrelevent and they cant change..that is all i will say about that ( Read more... )

oooh i think tonight will be fun....
fun ness in the bay? , how very strange...
mitch,hasso,random others + spa , hopefully = FUN

i feel i will not talk about emtions in this entry
over it all

THAT IS ALL!!!!

the moods and feelings of late have been werid, strange and unusual... theres always the usual up down up down but now there seems to be this werid one inbetweeen... i think maybe the drugs are starting to settle in and the vommiting has now stopped thank fukn god ( Read more... )

not again not again not again
cant do this again
if it is like this again tomorrow i am going to stop taking them.... i dont care
who does really...

i wish the mood of this morning would stay..
the calmness
but it won't
beccause tomorrow, i have to go back to that.
the yelling
the past
the feelings
the tears
the utter loneliness
the emotions
the stress
the anxiety
the fits
the guilt
the blood
the emtyness
the nothing
the anger
the solatude
the everything ... it eats at my insides... and if i ( Read more... )

i've missed you

and i have just figured out that you haven't missed me at all

yesterday, what a day, what a beautiful day of incredibly talented musicians, the company of such an amazing person, sweat, fun weird strangers dancing with us, strange guys asking us to "come for a beer", pushing fat pudgy 12 year old boys, yelling at annoying people being rude, bashing people in the pit just for the sake of it, looking at ( Read more... )