i saw you today crossing the street. you were hanging your head and shuffling your feet but you looked happy, playful, hopeful. you didn't look scared. you were smirking. i don't know what happened in me when i saw you but i froze and i now know where the expression 'heart skipped a beat' comes from. so much is stuffed into that millisecond, in ( Read more... )

she woke up laughing. someone once told her that at the core of every joke was something so heartbreaking that human beings lack the ability to acknowledge it completely. she tore open her curtains, ignoring the first cigarette craving of the day. it was 7 am. the sea looked like the morning after glass table tops she'd spent so much time scouring ( Read more... )

the sea, sushi, new years eve, whimsical things, 1940s, dancing, sunday mornings, shows

i am grateful, i really am.

clothes i need
- white keds
- brown leather old man loafers
- lace up black winter boots.
- get small black blazer cropped
- get passport photo updated
- deposit cheques

nobody reads this anymore so i'm just going to start using it as a diary. i love fall so much, its almost as if i'm nostalgic for right now, if that makes sense. i'm listening to fucking deja entendu, best album ever when i was 14, haha. thanksgiving is quite possibly my favourite weekend of the whole year. i feel so inspired and grateful and ( Read more... )

While the intricacies of the modern day metropolis have certainly evolved throughout the years, the basic criteria of the city has remained constant. Having grown up in the 21st century, the elements that define my idea of a city are considerably modern. Skyscrapers, highways and subways are just a few examples of factors I associate with a city ( Read more... )

i fell for a fucking girl.

i expect too much of people. i destroy everything that is good in my life. i have such an ego that i am personally offended if not everyone falls in love with me, and yet I simultaneously think I am worth nothing. i am restless. i think restlessness is the worst. when people do fall for me i push them away. my life feels so small and it's stifling ( Read more... )

to do:
call red cross and see how to re-assert my bronze cross.
e-mail christy and see if they do it at camp.
find CPR c certificate.