in the past year I have ( Read more... )

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and then you feel so low you can't feel nothin at all
and you flash back to when he said forever and always

rejection sucks.

sweeet

a stolen yellow nano
let me know if you hear anything.........

if I could see the future and how this plays out
I bet it's better than where we are now

I miss screamin' and fightin'
And kissin' in the rain
It's two a.m. and I'm cursin' your name
I'm so in love that I acted insane
And that's the way I loved you

Breakin' down and comin' undone
It's a roller-coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you

you're almost a complete stranger to me now. we haven't spoken in atleast two years. why did I admit things to you that I haven't been able to admit to myself, nevermind anyone else? why do I do this to myself. BRAIN STOP THINKING PLEASEEEEE ( Read more... )

I wish it was this time last year. everything was so good then. today specifically. it's josh's birthday and we all got together and got him a fish and pizza and it was all so fun. it was a nice day too. it just rained today. I gave him his presents and then he went to the y. blah. sucks a little bit. last night I surprised him with a bday dinner ( Read more... )

I want to make a difference to someone. why can't I?