I had a beautiful, blissful day today, spent with two of my very favorite people, Drew and Meg. My Meg. My amazing, beautiful, wonderful girl. I would say I was lucky, or privileged, except that seems to me so trite. I have found something in someone that I didn't know existed. This is beauty - we are beauty. I feel filled up to the brim, ( Read more... )

The gap between my family and me is ever widening, with no quick fix in sight. They simply can't wrap their overly-brilliant (but too partial) heads around the fact that I no longer NEED them anymore, and that time with them is optional and that I love Meg and that that can take precedence over family time, and that I am growing up and don't need ( Read more... )

OH MY GOD I LOVE MEG AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! I CAN'T STOP SMILING, AND LAUGHING, AND CRYING A LITTLE (BUT HAPPY TEARS) AND I'M JUST OVERWHELMED AND LAUGHING AND I LOVE HER AND IT ALL HIT ME AND I'VE BEEN TOLD ALL HIGHS THROUGH DRUGS CAN BE ACHIEVED WITHOUT DRUGS SO I MUST BE ON EXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXTASY AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! SHE'S THE SEXIEST, ( Read more... )

On a review of the movie "Splash" -

"I didn't find the nudity offensive - all you see is a flash of bottom, and mermaids don't have clothes on when they transform into humans. "

*beat*

*blink*

*snorts*

*laughs*

*rolling on the floor*

"Hey Lec, how come when you're looking at an ink cartridge you can't find where the ink comes out? Oh. Fuck. That's a damn lie. Heather, do you have a tissue?" ~ Meg

I didn't feel like another depressing entry. Meg's cute.

I've just had the single most emotional day of my entire life. I've never been that scared and confused, and I've never been that angry. Ever. I have nothing left. I can't believe what's happened to me in the last ten hours or so. In that time, I've lost all ability to view my mother with anything except unadulterated hatred, and I don't think that ( Read more... )

I just had the most realistic, frightening nightmare I've ever had in my life ( Read more... )

I'm tired of the smallness everywhere. The small-thinking people, the claustrophobically mundane classes, the superfluousness and egocentricity of people's universes, the infinitesimal smallness of interpretation and expression and feeling. LIVE, LIVE, LIVE. The pathetic delinquency of potential and the apathy of that very fact. I feel boxed in and ( Read more... )

Two very strange things happened on friday. For the first time in my family's history, all five of us - Meghan, Mom, Dad, Soph and I - were in completely different places. Meghan was in Boston, Sophia in Ithaca, Mom in Louisville, myself right here and Dad in Concord. That's never happened before, and it felt pretty strange and a jarring ( Read more... )

Everything is changing. Everything around me, everything inside of me...taken at its most micro or macro level, be it interpersonal or global, nothing is going to be the same, and in a very short amount of time. It's strange, wanting to let go so badly you want to run as fast as you can away from everything you know, and also wanting to grab your ( Read more... )