Yeah, my last post was a little dramatic.  I was just very depressed that night.  Fortunatly it didn't turn into another slump.

For those of you who still care, I'm still not sure if I got the job at Borders or not.  They won't make any final decisions until next week, they told me.  You can bet yer ass I'm callin 'em Monday :P.  Till then, the ( Read more... )

I could use some good news right about now, because it seems like everything that was possibly bright is turning dark

I feel bad for not e-mailing Alyx back yet.  I just don't want to do it when I'm all depressed and moody.  Unfortunalty, I have been that way every time I have free time latley.

I'm just sick of all of this.  What happened to me?  When I was a kid, all the way through high school, I always seemed to think that everything will turn out in the end ( Read more... )

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Man, I hate it when my brain feels like ranting about the same thing over and over again.  Especially if it's about a certain ex, and most of you probably know who I'm refering to.

Dammnit brain, I've had enough!  Just shut up already!  Whiney ass mother fucker.

Man, it has been way too long since i've written in this thing.  If anyone still reads this thing, they're probably wondering if i'm still alive.  Sorry to disappoint you, but a still am.  I should probably start with the updates.  Lexi and I had a mutial break up in April.  We're just too different from each other.  It was kind of a reboud ( Read more... )

Drink deep, it's just a taste, and it might not come this way again,
I believe in moments, transparent moment, moments in grace when you've got to stake your faith

(but why do I confine, when all I want is release?)

It moves inside you, it stays outside you,
and its not something that I could prove,
or could chose, to be moved.
Yes its a promise, and ( Read more... )

I'm back

Heart's beating irregulerly again. That means I'll probably have to goto the hospital. Call my house if you want to know what's up, since I won't have my cell phone at the hospital.

So this is permanence, love's shattered pride
What once was innocent, turned on it's side
A cloud hangs over me, marks every move
Deep in the memory, of what once was love
Oh how I realised how I wanted time
Put into perspective, tried so hard to find
Just for one moment, thought I'd found my way
Destiny unfolded, I watched it slip away
Excessive ( Read more... )