I really want things to be different. The sad thing is, I know how and I just haven't done it yet. I don't know what my frickin problem is. Wait, yeah I do. I'm so weak and dang lazy. I can't stand myself. But the good I do, I do it for you, and you, and you. Thanks to yous. You know it. The CHANGE starts NOW ( Read more... )

I let this week go by and it went by well. EFY was really good...I feel really well about how I was and about myself. I know that as time goes by things will either get harder or easier and i think that things are getting easier right now. I am home now...and all that is left for me this summer is Indiana U. And, as expected good will always

I really haven't written anything for a while...I guess it's time I do that.

I can't remember when my last entry was...So I will just improvise.

Lately I have done a whole lot of nothing...yeah it's way fun, ever since I had my bone chiseled on my foot life has been great.  It actually wasn't all that bad.  People bought me stuff, were nice to me, ( Read more... )

MY ROOM IS DONE!!.  I am so glad to have it finished now...it looks so hot.  Also...tonight was a good night.  I hung out with Natalie, Christine and Britt.  We had a good time singing Mormon music as Natalie played it on the piano.  What a good time that was.  I mean who can honestly say that when their friends come over they sing Mormon music?  I ( Read more... )

"I feel the rhythm of your body close to mine."

Tonight, talking to Micah I just started asking him all these questions...I am not sure where they were coming from they just kept coming.  Questions like these:

hewsalmon488: how many times have you wished life were different...only to find that it allready is different

hewsalmon488: how many times ( Read more... )

Hey hey...the mail man finally has a purpose in life.  And it's my purpose.  Finally he delivers something for me.  There is a song about Mr. Postman and I would sing it but I can't remember it.  Anyway...so I was way excited and I went to Christine's to give her her letter and to talk to her because the anticipation was finally over.  I knew it ( Read more... )

I finished all base coating for my bedroom and it looks so sexy. Ok, wrong word choice but it gets a point across. The past while I have been thinking about so many different things. And one of those things seems to never change...I continue hoping that soon I will have something to take my mind away from this all. Maybe there is something that ( Read more... )

Ok...so I wrote out a whole ton of stuff straight from the heart.  I expressed so much love and it got deleted before I could save it.  Now I just feel so much hate for this system.  It's taunting me...when I push the back button it shows me what I typed for about a second and then deletes it again.

Well yeah, it comes to that time when old people begin to tire a person out and those new...which never seemed meetable become the ones you love and learn to cherish with all your heart.  It's funny though, cuz I don't care.  I want to spend time with the new.  Sure I still love old people but time can run short.  I miss the feeling of total peace ( Read more... )

As each day goes by I become more and more thankful for the few friends who still make me happy. I hope that each of you know who you are because if you don't, I haven't done my job as that friend. Today is a better day, I can tell. I am not forced to think so much or feel so much of what transpired yesterday. I can only say it was not a fun ( Read more... )