Well, we went to Sectionals yesterday. The ride there was surprisingly calm; free of crazy freaking out or pyscho depression. When we got there we started about a half an hour after arriving...that's when I started getting that funny feeling in my stomach that everyone gets ( Read more... )

Do you ever look in the mirror and not recognize yourself? This sounds odd, but it happens to me very frequently. It usually occurs when I stare too long in the mirror, really surveying myself. And suddenly it hits me; "Who is this girl?...This isn't me." And then I usually enter that frame of mind where I start saying to myself, "This is only a ( Read more... )

Well, we got 2nd place in Districts today...whoo hoo? For once I cannot blame myelf though. I felt that I was a very strong chairman, and I recieved compliments form the judges. Oh well, hopefully we will beat the shit out of them at Sectionals ( Read more... )

I changed my format again, it's very pretty. I can never stay with a format too long; I get bored ( Read more... )

Well, I cut again. I didn't feel particularly horrible or anything, it's just that sort of thing that builds up and you need to release it. I actually planned it beforehand, which is something I never do. I was going to "allow myself" only two cuts in the places where I usually usually cut; wrist, forearm, upper arm, leg...etc. So I would only have ( Read more... )

Oh look, the new casting of Harry Potter has been officially announced. After seeing the listing, I automatically looked up the actors to play the two characters that I was most excited about, hoping they would be cast well. *ahem*


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Whoa, today was extremely boring. My parents forced me to go into Monmouth and go to the library there. I put up a fuss since I wanted to stay home and relax, so I ended up sitting in the car for two hours. I found this really loud alternative station on the radio, blared it, and pretty much stared the whole entire time. I had a lot of time to ( Read more... )

Yesterday was not good ( Read more... )

FYI: Tomorrow Hell will be cleverly diguised as "Valentine's Day".

I am so frustrated with my life right now. I feel trapped, I feel like I'm being slowly suffocated...I need to leave. I don't know where I'd go, but anywhere is better than here at this point. This morning during Health I got the strongest urge to just leave the classroom. What could they do? Nothing...they couldn't have physically restrained me ( Read more... )